Kaylee Muthart,20, damaged her optic nerves ripping her eyes from their sockets during a horrific methamphetamine-induced hallucinations.
“I thought I was sacrificing myself for the world,” she said. “It wasn’t voices, but I thought it was real.”
Muthart explains, trees appeared to curl downward and the skies darkened. she sensed the world was ending. Muthart pressed her fingers into her eye sockets believing that somehow by plucking them out she might save the world.
The visions would be the last thing she ever would see as she knelt alongside railroad tracks, screaming in pain. The last thing Kaylee Muthart saw was a light pole morphing into a white dove.
“I believed what was happening was real. I saw a dove,” Muthart said. “It was a memory of something beautiful, a white bird in the light. I was on my knees on the railroad track. I looked at the light pole and I thought my friend had went into the light. The light looked like a beautiful white dove.”
The Rev. Terry Mitchell, a retired minister, who was among a group in a church across from the railroad tracks, saw her kneeling and in pain. She was trying to get her fingers further into her head. She struggled against several large men who had come out of the church.
Muthart was taken to the hospital and treated for several weeks. Her eye injuries were cauterized to seal them, and she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. She is now telling her story in hopes of keeping others off of drugs.
Muthart has started to learn Braille. She has started to re-learn her way around her mother’s home here. A new life and a new sense of purpose have surfaced.
At the hospital in Greenville, about 30 miles to the northeast, Muthart began to cope with her blindness.
Jacqueline Keisler, a spokeswoman for the South Carolina Commission for the Blind said, everyone who becomes blind will face different challenges covering most parts of their lives, from transportation to daily living.
Muthart is working with the commission to help adjust to her new life. The assistance could range from job-readiness training, Braille literacy, orientation, mobility and computer training, Keisler said.
Muthart said she will check into a longer-term rehab program soon. She has no desire to be around drugs ever again.Faith and music have kept Muthart grounded during her recovery. Muthart also enjoys pulling out a guitar and strumming one of the few songs she knows in full: Cigarette Daydream by Cage the Elephant.
She has reacquainted herself with the Bible, starting at the beginning.
“Christ is all of us,” she said. “Drugs make that void seem filled, but you don’t know what’s true. It distracts from real life. I want people to know not to use drugs.”
Muthart wants to go back to her dream, pursuing a career as a marine biologist.
She wants to use her story to inspire people, possibly as a public speaker. She wants to share her gratitude for the medical professionals and pastors who have helped her.
“God does not want you to be scared or confused,” Muthart said. “I want to spread my story, and I trust in God to do that for me. It took me to get my eyes out of my head to see anything good happening to me.”